Eff the Shame
What am I all about these days?
Staying jacked up. Staying excited about my work, my life.
I magically ended up at this random website that is based halfway across the world, more than once. That’s got to be a sign right? So, I signed up for some work to get to the heart of what I’m about…which leads also to what my business is about. Because I’ve always said “small business web design” but YAWN. WHY am I small business web design…this I’m getting to the bottom of.
Will discovering WHY you do what you do feel like your “true calling” or some sort of “soulmate” action?
pfffft. I’m going to say no. At least not in my world…but I’m sooo not a romantic so maybe it will for you! (If it does, please don’t tell me or I’ll be jealous)
It WILL however, feel like excitement, like clarity, and maybe even like your insides are dancing. That my friends, is frickin awesome. Who doesn’t want to feel like that?! I can tell you I most certainly do. It’s a drug…and makes me want more and more to get in tune to how I can live like that…
ALL THE DAMN TIME.
How did I get here? A long road. Like really long, and it punched out a few times along the way with some crippling self doubt. But I’m here now! I’m proud of my business. I’m proud of my ethics. I’m proud of my work and what I do for my Clients.
Sadly there were times I couldn’t say that. Times of shame. Frickin shame you guys, it’s a killer. Shame that I didn’t have the knowledge to build a site from scratch, to code it. Shame that I use pre-made themes to create websites for my Clients. Shame that I never went to college for this or have any certifications in design.
ALL THE FRICKIN SHAME.
Operating from a place of shame is the shits. You can’t be truly confident in your work when your ego is veiled in shame. It makes running your own business mentally exhausting.
And now?
EFF THE SHAME.
Why? Because I’m creating websites that are bang on to my Client’s brands. I feed on their excitement and vibration they have going on when they speak of their business. I’m getting to know them. And there is a REALLY good chance I now consider them friends.
Is that wonky? A weird way to operate a business? Ya…probably. But being weird is not something I’ve ever denied being.
Maybe that’s what makes Unlimited BS different. And maybe, that’s why we should work together 🙂
Wonky and weird? Becoming friends with everyone you worked with? Sounds awesome!
And, psst, I grapple that shame monster too. Wow, he sucks.
So sucks. I’m glad it’s trapped away now 🙂
Your enthusiasm is palpable Brenda! I totally agree, shame is super destructive….though it can take some time for us to work through it!
Great post.
Thanks Nicole! I appreciate your feedback. I feel like now I’ve put it all out there….it’s gone! WOO HOO!
You sound like a very real person who is up to doing very real work in very real relationships with your clients. Just the kind of person I enjoy working with! 🙂
That’s so nice, thank you Cristina 🙂
I’d take weird over normal anyday 😉
me too 😉 Thanks Vesna.